Broken Promises, Accompanied by a Field Of Broken Hearts and Shattered Dreams...

So, I have been having the best fucking month in history!!!! It all started with my best "friends" getting really pissed at me because I went down to visit my friend Micah in college. Well, it was college, and let's just say I had a REALLY good time. So when I went to do the responsible thing and tell David and Joel, they got really REALLY mad, mostly Joel, and stopped talking to me. Then, Joel moves away, without telling me at all. This kid was my support system and didn't tell me just because he knew it would hurt me.

Then, none of my friends seem to have time for me anymore, which sucks. So when I had decided the college I wanted to go to, then got the letter telling me I'm not smart enough to go there, no one was there. No one fucking cared.

To make matters worse, the guy I love, Jimmy, well he just recently started doing something again that he promised me he would stop. He knew it made me fucking worry about him and whether or not he's okay...but no, of course not because in the world today, promises are just made to be broken. But because of this little activity that Jimmy has decided to partake in once more, he also no longer has time to talk to me AT ALL.

I miss my friends....

I know all of you reading this don't even care and are probably going to just leave me nasty comments, but that's okay. That is actually the least of problems. I don't care what you people think about me. I don't care about anything or anyone anymore. Because by caring for someone so deeply that you would give your fucking life for them, all you're doing is setting yourself up to be hurt. You're setting yourself up to get your heart broken.

So this is it, I'm giving up on love...I'm giving up on happiness...I'm giving up on my dreams...and I'm giving up on having hope.

That's all I have to say.