Tears That Bring Eyeliner

Here we go, my mind is literally jumbled and being bipolar currently

I recently went to camp, hoo-rah, right? Wrong. I mean yes, I learned for my spirituallity to grow and become stronger, and reach better understanding of my passions, and where my life is suppose to go, how I want to go, how loved I am, and my relationship with God.

But camp happened at the wrong time, there was drama here in Little Ol' Essexville.

Not kewl. Which was why I didn't go deep throttle into what I wanted to do at camp. This whole dramtic situation is driving me crazy. Its a long story, and I need help with it. I'd rather tell someone through message, big sorry. But yeah, that's how it should be done.

But this whole situation has taught me more about life, and how I can't hate it for it being my own fault. I'm not a hateful person either, I'm very affectionate and loving.

I just want to know where I am going in my life. Too young to figure it out? I think not.

I'm pretty sure my calling is in music, possibly technology. I don't know. But it seems that way. I never know when God is talking to me, to tell me what I need ever-so to hear. And it kills me.

I have a major passion for music, and I want to pursue it. But something tells me I shouldn't. Just, someone willing, help.
I hate asking for help, but its needed right now.

XOXO
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