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I ain't no Pollyanna.

by Nora Rocket | 09/28/2006 | in Boston | haaaate

Today when we asked the shop owner where the two of us might be able to walk to that would have some shops to peruse, some windows to scope, some strolling, some people to watch, and possibly a cafe into which we could pop for a cuppa and...

...and all of the places she mentioned were places that I'd been either earlier today or before in my only four weeks of living here.

Everyone keeps saying that Boston is a walking city, but what's the point if walking doesn't get you anywhere you'd like to be? You don't get anywhere, you just perambulate. You walk and walk and walk, but you end up at the Gap or the Dunkin' Donuts or in another neighbourhood that feels like a suburb, only less populated. I feel like the iris around my world is drawing more closed. I feel thwarted in my attempts to be expansive, like living here is going to drive me farther into myself and into my own diversions, into the job I'll eventually have and into books, movies, music.

I hope it doesn't go this way, but if it does, I'll just go into a brief hermitage for three years and then have a real life again. Worst of all? I'm stuck talking through all this with you lunkheads, because my partner, the whole and only reason I moved out of Chicago in the first place, doesn't want to hear about how I don't like it here. I'm in charge of the way I feel, so it's not in her responsibility to make me like this. But I refuse to pretend that I'm here for any reason other than she came here and I came too. It is her fault that we're here--she picked Boston--but it's not her fault I chose to follow her and it's not her fault I don't like it. That's all my fault and it's my choice to get over it.

So.

Better times later. Spleen for now.

Dumbass Boston with its pretend little transit system and its dysfunctional series of cut-off neighbourhoods and its dizzying non-gridded streets and its chain stores and its Dunkin' everywhere.

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I find it hard to believe
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Submitted by r.john on Thu, 09/28/2006 - 8:00pm.

That there is no Boston Psychogeographical Society active in the city. Or maybe I should put it another way...there has to be somewhere at the end of the walk even if it is a twisted nail with a sign reading YOU ARE THERE in red lipstick letters.


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I was totally being sympathetic to your situation
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Submitted by That Rat Nest B... on Thu, 09/28/2006 - 10:19pm.

Until I read this!

I hope it doesn't go this way, but if it does, I'll just go into a brief hermitage for three years and then have a real life again. Worst of all? I'm stuck talking through all this with you lunkheads...

That was all coming from a dark and disrespectful place, Nora, and I didn't appreciate it.

Apologize!


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hat in hand
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Submitted by Nora Rocket on Fri, 09/29/2006 - 8:30am.

That Rat Nest Brain Thing wrote:
Until I read this!

I hope it doesn't go this way, but if it does, I'll just go into a brief hermitage for three years and then have a real life again. Worst of all? I'm stuck talking through all this with you lunkheads...

That was all coming from a dark and disrespectful place, Nora, and I didn't appreciate it.

Apologize!

I am sorry that I implied that hermits do not have "real" lives. They are people too, even though they generally eschew the company of society and do not fall under society's standards of interaction or activity. I understand that it is often a valid choice of the hermit to disenroll from society and that it in no way reflects a pathology. It is a life decision, and just as the life decisions of more social people deserve to be respected, I should respect the decisions of hermits.
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:-(
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Submitted by Seitan on Fri, 09/29/2006 - 9:47am.

Gee, so sorry you have to stoop to the level of talking to us hermit lunkheads...

I thought you were cool, Nora Rocket, but now I see you only post here because you don't have anything "better" to do. Well, we'll let you get back to your "exciting" life making things with butter, or whatever it is exactly that you "do."


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The problem with the interweb...
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Submitted by Nora Rocket on Sat, 09/30/2006 - 8:59am.

...is that text comes across, but often tone does not.

What I meant to get at with my statement about the worst part being talking to y'all was that I can't talk about it with my ostensive *life partner* because *she* doesn't care to hear my negativity about our current geography. I personally am lame for venting to strangers because I can't actually talk to the person I should be able to talk to. That's the big rub I was aiming for in this post: that the person I'm supposed to be able to share everything with is not up for this sharing.

This situation puts the lie to the ideal of the self-contained, all-sustaining two-person relationship as the base unit of humanity. One cannot get everything they need from just one other person. But that's another incendiary blog post for another day...

And, "lunkheads?" What would you like to hear, Todd? I can't unsay it; I don't think a lunkhead is a bad thing to get called. I don't think you're somehow less worthy. I don't think I could be doing something better. Unless you think "something better" could include watching my neutered cat get his freak on with the fleece blanket, because that's the main attraction in the house right now.

Thanks for putting me on page two, by the way.


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Damn It
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Submitted by Seitan on Sun, 10/01/2006 - 11:21pm.

I can't stay mad at you, Butter Girl.


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it looks pretty at first
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Submitted by underindigo on Mon, 10/02/2006 - 5:08pm.

i think you're unalone in this

every place [i go?] is like that a littlebit [i believe wholeheartedly].
i live in this fake big city (le charlotte, nc) which unless you love bank of america a whole lot or maybe nascar and bars with lots of afterwork 5:30 kids-with-upturnedcollars it took me forever to get to the inside of it, and now i see all these great secret places

it's a far cry from boston, of course, which is purportedly amazing- but it's inspired me.
i'm sure you'll find all the quiet or loud small places soon.


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It's understandable. I moved
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Submitted by luciente on Sun, 10/15/2006 - 2:48pm.

It's understandable.

I moved to Portland, Oregon, which a lot of people like for a lot of reasons. But, even though my partner feels completely at home, I feel rueful about being in a place that is ethnically quite homogeneous.

And, good grief, but there are a lot of Dunkin Donuts in the NE. Weird.


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