It could be a cheesy SLC Punk high
Maybe.......let’s give it a shot anyway
I've been having a few odd days. I wouldn't go so far as calling it as an act of an inner "emo" bit it's getting close in a way.
I feel off balance, yet it’s not a bad feeling of balance. My head hurts more with every passing day and yet it seems to be clearer, A constant contradiction.
Emo maybe, but its happening
About in the end of the last fall semester last year, I was determined to get out of where I am now and transfer out of state. Maybe take the year off and do other things as I became a resident. My brain is sneaky like that, always keeping the legality not too far away.
I randomly looked into Portland State. Cheap tuition, least I could get a master in Public Administration, far away from stuff happening in New Jersey. It gave me that feeling of renewal.
Nothing makes sense anymore. I feel stuck somehow, I thought about that song from Henry Rollins “Retired at 21”. I don’t feel retired at all. I feel old, but not ready to throw it in. did I begin too late in life? Did I miss the party? I just feel as if a “what happened?” came over.
In fact I do feel “dated”. The Feeling of being the random elder around this place, been here for too long and needed to get going a long time ago.
Hell, I’m probably ranting as usual. I’m going to go to bed and get ready for four hours of fun at work.
Good Nite
