nothing to come or gain

here i go going to spill my heart out to those willing enough to read and people i don't know. i don't care any more if pople know because i know they'll never care enough to stop it. any of you that are going to post hate mail back a way now because i am not doing this to pick a fight i am doing this because i want to and really have no one else to go to who won't judge me and say that i am somehting i'm not. I don't know what or who i am but i know that people can't desphire it by my looks. or what i type, you have to know me %100 percent or more in order for me to trust you and for you to be abler to lable me. Not even my friends can do that.