That Rat Nest Brain Thing's blog

Yeah, I'll set my alarm for 8 a.m. and hit snooze until noon. Then I'll sit in bed staring at the ceiling for a good 30 or 40 minutes upset about not waking up earlier.

I'll walk 15 or so steps to the living room, turn on my laptop, walk 10 more steps, brew some coffee.

Then I'll stare crusty-lipped out my window at an empty, frozen parking lot.

And then I'll procrastinate and lose some more money.

And then I may or may not answer the phone- without cool ringtones- to listen to birthday wishes that will only make me more depressed.

Maybe I'll just lie and say I still have a job, just for tomorrow.

Color: solid yellow
Odor: musty
Smells like: coffee, and also pee
Strengh of odor (1-10 scale, with 10 being overpowering): 8
I just ate: A baked potato with broccoli, cheese, sourcream, mushrooms etc.
I just drank: 20 ounces of STARBUCKS coffee, 8 oz of Lipton Green Tea with honey
Other intersting characteristics: I couldn't truly see it too well because it went down the urinal :(

Color: corn yellow
Odor: body waste-like
Smells like: straight up, early morning urine
Strengh of odor (1-10 scale, with 10 being overpowering): 9
What I just ate: NA
I just drank: NA
Other intersting characteristics: bubbly! Also, in my bleery-eyed state I got some on my toilet.

Color: sort of an opaque white
Odor: pretty much NA
Smells like: linen sheets...or something fresh
Strengh of odor (1-10 scale, with 10 being overpowering): 1
What I just ate: 1 Klonopin
I just drank: approx 12 ounces of Arizona Ginseng Tea with about a shot of vodka.
Other intersting characteristics: very water like to the extent that, if I didn't know any better I would drink it. It looked REFRESHING!

Color: Lemon Cream
Odor: sweet
Smells like: Lime-aid
Strengh of odor (1-10 scale, with 10 being overpowering): 3
What I just ate: Italian beef, fries, onion rings
I just drank: 20 ounces of Pepsi, 16 oz of coffee (3 hours ago)
Other intersting characteristics: It was slightly fizzy

It's 1:30 a.m.(CST) on 9/30/06.

I smoked my last cigarette at about 3 p.m.(CST) on 9/28/06.

I'm now realizing that I can't quit. It's pointless. I mean I don't see how people do this. This is crazy.

I've smoked for just over 10 years.

I "quit" like a year and a half ago, but that only lasted one day. I said I quit for three months because I only smoked 5 cigarettes a day or less during that time period.

But what I've always realized is that there are too many instances in life which call for smoking. Um, I won't even list them all because accomplishing, thinking, doing, and not doing anything in general is accomodated well by smoking. Sit back, inhale and relax.